So the other day as Benn and I are talking about how excited we are for our new little girl to almost be here, I realized that I am also slightly terrified. I mean...in so many ways I still feel like a kid myself and realizing that in a less than 2 weeks I will officially be a mom just seems so surreal. I find myself worrying if I have enough clothes and if I got the right kind of bottles and just so many other weird random things. Then I realized that the worrying will never go away. I will worry about this girl for the rest of my life. Obviously the worries I have will change as she grows and new children come into our family, but the worries will always be there. And that...ladies and gentleman, is terrifying to me!
A day or so after having all of these realizations, Benn and I had interview with the Stake Presidency to renew our temple recommends. The man that did my interview couldn't help but notice my rather large belly (no surprise there!), so naturally we talked a little about the new baby. I mentioned some of the realizations that I had the previous day and he offered some wonderful council. As I left the Stake building, I felt such comfort and peace. I felt an over-whelming gratitude for a Heavenly Father that hears and understands my worries and fears. I realized how grateful I am for the ability and privilege to hold a recommend to the house of the Lord where I can go to find comfort and peace for all those fears and worries. I have the wonderful opportunity to spend time in that beautiful building and receive answers and guidance on so many different obstacles that I currently face and will face in the future. What a wonderful blessing in these terrifying times!
So while yes, I am terrified about this new chapter in our lives, I am also comforted. I'm comforted to know that I'm never alone. I have a wonderful husband, amazing family and friends, and a loving Heavenly Father who is aware of me. Who could ask for more?
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
32 weeks and FAMILY!!
So...first...here is a 32 weeks picture! Can't believe we are already this far! In so many ways we feel ready for this little lady to come. And in many other ways, we are terrified! I was trying to go to sleep the other night (which isn't too hard except I swear the minute I fall asleep I wake up with an urge to pee AGAIN), and I thought to myself, "What if my water broke right now?" and I immediately started to panic. I started making a list of all the things that weren't ready yet and I was thinking about how I have talked about and read about what labor and delivery will be like but I realized how no matter all that, I'm still scared because I have never done this before. Unknowns just really aren't my bag...so anyway, looking forward to almost being done with school so I can get to work on my list of 'things to do before our little lady graces us with her presence'!
So the other pictures are of the adventures Benn and I had with my Mom, sister, and Grandma. They came to visit us for a few days and we had a blast with them! We went to Newport, RI to tour 2 of the Newport Mansions, which were awesome! On Sunday we took them to the Boston Temple and me (not thinking about taking pictures) wore my comfy clothes so while everybody else looks classy...i'm rocking pajama pants. :) Monday we walked about 7ish miles all around Boston with the Freedom Trail and ended for a small tour of Benn's school. Our tour guide was one hunk of man! :) (Hopefully everybody realized from that comment that Benn was our guide). It was so great to have family here! Only a little more than 7 weeks we will have one more reason for family and friends to come visit, so bring it on! We love having visitors!
So the other pictures are of the adventures Benn and I had with my Mom, sister, and Grandma. They came to visit us for a few days and we had a blast with them! We went to Newport, RI to tour 2 of the Newport Mansions, which were awesome! On Sunday we took them to the Boston Temple and me (not thinking about taking pictures) wore my comfy clothes so while everybody else looks classy...i'm rocking pajama pants. :) Monday we walked about 7ish miles all around Boston with the Freedom Trail and ended for a small tour of Benn's school. Our tour guide was one hunk of man! :) (Hopefully everybody realized from that comment that Benn was our guide). It was so great to have family here! Only a little more than 7 weeks we will have one more reason for family and friends to come visit, so bring it on! We love having visitors!
The next two pictures are of one of the Newport Mansions we went to. It was called 'The Elms'. Pretty crazy how fancy those houses are! Reminds me of Downton Abbey, so of course I loved it...
The Charles River
They loved the cobble stone roads!
The next two pictures are of where we ate lunch and got desert. We do love our Mike's Pastry! Having visitors gives us an excuse to eat there, as well as try out other new places.
Old North Church is behind us...just wanted to point that out because all I see when I look at this picture is the tacky sweater tied around my waist....ha!
My mom wanted to take a picture with our T passes and the Orange Line sign. :)
Just in case you can't figure it out...here are some pictures of the Boston Temple.
This is a lovely picture of me walking up a super steep hill to get to Bunker Hill...yes...once reaching the top I sat down for a few to catch my breath. I just can't walk like I used to.
So...now that you have seen all the fun that can be had in Boston, who else wants to come visit?! :)
Monday, April 1, 2013
24 weeks
Well, we've just about hit the 24 week mark and the dress I wore to Church on Easter showed off my belly quite nicely so...I had Benn snap a picture. So here it is!
It's weird to look at pictures with this belly poking out. Sometimes I forget that it sticks out like that so looking at pictures is really the only way to convince myself that yes that is what I look like, yes it's great, and yes...in less than 4 months Benn and I will be parents. It's seriously mind blowing at times.
My mom sent an "Idaho Baby Shower in a Box" which was so amazing! Benn hoarded all the presents and surprised me with them when two friends showed up Friday to give complementary 'oohs' and 'ahhs' to all the wonderful gifts friends and family had sent. So here are some pictures of the wonderful things we got! And just want to say thanks to all who put the effort forward. It's so amazing to know that we have people that loves us and remember us even though we are SO FAR AWAY! So thanks everybody, you're amazing.
Easter
It's Easter (or was yesterday)! What a wonderful thing to celebrate that our Savior lives. We had a wonderful church meeting and came home to celebrate the day with each other. Benn found a cool way to decorate eggs so we thought we would practice dying eggs. We thought it was pretty cool...
We decided to try some papers on there too - turned out pretty cool looking
TA DA! The finished eggs. Unfortunately the dye kinda came off when we tried to clean the shaving cream off so...next time we will try something different so we can keep more of the dye on. :)
After our egg dying, we ate a fabulous dinner of ham, overnight (funeral) potatoes, green beans, and rolls. We enjoyed getting to spend time with each other and reflecting on the amazing gift our Savior gave us. We topped the night off with some Easter candy that Benn's mom sent us. Happy Easter all!
Friday, March 15, 2013
BABY!
Well - haven't put this up yet, but Benn and I will be expecting a little baby girl July 26th! We are getting so excited! Just this past week I have started feeling the baby move and Benn has been able to feel it once. It has definitely been the coolest thing about being pregnant so far.
One thing that I have been feeling lately is just how blessed we are. It is very humbling to know that the Lord is going to trust us with one of his spirit children. It makes us want to be so much better than we are knowing that we will have a precious new life to be responsible for.
I remember my mom and other mom's talking about how having your own children changes your idea of what love is - that the love of a mother is one of those things that you can't explain but that you just have to experience. This past week I think I started to feel a little bit of what that is. I have this thing growing and moving inside me and there are so many things that I do or don't do to help keep it safe and growing healthy. It is so precious and I feel like I had a little glimpse what it's like to be a parent and love something so much that I will do anything to keep it safe and healthy. And on top of that, I haven't even seen or held it yet! I can only imagine how much stronger that love will be come July 26th.
One thing that I have been feeling lately is just how blessed we are. It is very humbling to know that the Lord is going to trust us with one of his spirit children. It makes us want to be so much better than we are knowing that we will have a precious new life to be responsible for.
I remember my mom and other mom's talking about how having your own children changes your idea of what love is - that the love of a mother is one of those things that you can't explain but that you just have to experience. This past week I think I started to feel a little bit of what that is. I have this thing growing and moving inside me and there are so many things that I do or don't do to help keep it safe and growing healthy. It is so precious and I feel like I had a little glimpse what it's like to be a parent and love something so much that I will do anything to keep it safe and healthy. And on top of that, I haven't even seen or held it yet! I can only imagine how much stronger that love will be come July 26th.
Here is an ultrasound picture from about 3 weeks ago at 18 weeks. :)
Me with a growing belly - at 21 weeks...over half way!! WOO HOO!
Sunday, January 13, 2013
The Holidays: Cole Style :)
So...Christmas was quite crazy for us! We got to fly to Idaho and spend a few days at my parents house in Parma. We spent some time with extended family when we went caroling to people around town. It is one of my favorite traditions and I was so excited to get to do that and be close to family.
Christmas day we headed up to North Idaho to Jessica's (my sister) house. We ended opening presents Christmas eve night because my mom had to work on Christmas at the Hospital. We had a blast getting to see Jess and John and their adorable 3 boys. Benn usually ends up being the baby sitter while the girls go shopping and he is always so wonderful to do it. He helped the boys make a track and ramp for their race cars and I have to admit - it was pretty cool. :) It's wild how fast kids grow up! It had only been about 6 months since we had seen them last and it seemed like it had been years!
We flew out of there and headed to Atlanta, Georgia a couple days later to spend about two days with a great friend of mine from college. We went to the aquarium in Atlanta which was AMAZING! Seriously, one of the best aquariums I've ever been to so that was super fun (except the line to get in rivaled those at disneyland). That night we went to a restaurant called papadeaux and it was so good! It was some real cajun food. Between the three of us we had shrimp gumbo, cheesy grits, frog legs, fried catfish, stuffed crap, and some amazing fish concoction Benn had. It was so good - minus the heart burn later. haha! We got to attend the singles ward with my friend, Terra and it brought back some memories for Benn and I. The best part about that though (minus the spiritual enlightenment) was that the meeting was held in an old plantation home. We made Terra show us the rest of the house after the meeting. It was soo cool! It happened to be the only thing we remembered to get pictures of...so here those are!
The holidays were so great for us. We had the opportunity to spend time with wonderful friends and family that we love dearly. Sadly we didn't get to see all of our loved ones, but look forward to when we get to and are grateful for modern communication that allows us to facetime, skype, and talk on the phone.
I think the most interesting part of our holiday journey's was getting reminded of the difference of the east and west coast. I don't know how else to explain it - except that they are totally different. The feel is different, the people are different, and the general attitude is different. We have decided that the east coast is not a place that we could spend the rest of our lives - we just love the west coast too much. However, we continue to enjoy living out here and taking part of the wonderful opportunities we have! Benn's school and my work are going well and we feel blessed to be safe and have each other. We've been able to make friends with some people in our ward and it's great to be able to spend time with them like we would with our families. We are extremely grateful for our blessings and the love and support from friends and family.
One of my new years resolutions is to update this dang blog more! So i'm going to try and be better at that as well as taking pictures to go along with all these words! Merry Christmas and happy new year!
Christmas day we headed up to North Idaho to Jessica's (my sister) house. We ended opening presents Christmas eve night because my mom had to work on Christmas at the Hospital. We had a blast getting to see Jess and John and their adorable 3 boys. Benn usually ends up being the baby sitter while the girls go shopping and he is always so wonderful to do it. He helped the boys make a track and ramp for their race cars and I have to admit - it was pretty cool. :) It's wild how fast kids grow up! It had only been about 6 months since we had seen them last and it seemed like it had been years!
We flew out of there and headed to Atlanta, Georgia a couple days later to spend about two days with a great friend of mine from college. We went to the aquarium in Atlanta which was AMAZING! Seriously, one of the best aquariums I've ever been to so that was super fun (except the line to get in rivaled those at disneyland). That night we went to a restaurant called papadeaux and it was so good! It was some real cajun food. Between the three of us we had shrimp gumbo, cheesy grits, frog legs, fried catfish, stuffed crap, and some amazing fish concoction Benn had. It was so good - minus the heart burn later. haha! We got to attend the singles ward with my friend, Terra and it brought back some memories for Benn and I. The best part about that though (minus the spiritual enlightenment) was that the meeting was held in an old plantation home. We made Terra show us the rest of the house after the meeting. It was soo cool! It happened to be the only thing we remembered to get pictures of...so here those are!
The holidays were so great for us. We had the opportunity to spend time with wonderful friends and family that we love dearly. Sadly we didn't get to see all of our loved ones, but look forward to when we get to and are grateful for modern communication that allows us to facetime, skype, and talk on the phone.
I think the most interesting part of our holiday journey's was getting reminded of the difference of the east and west coast. I don't know how else to explain it - except that they are totally different. The feel is different, the people are different, and the general attitude is different. We have decided that the east coast is not a place that we could spend the rest of our lives - we just love the west coast too much. However, we continue to enjoy living out here and taking part of the wonderful opportunities we have! Benn's school and my work are going well and we feel blessed to be safe and have each other. We've been able to make friends with some people in our ward and it's great to be able to spend time with them like we would with our families. We are extremely grateful for our blessings and the love and support from friends and family.
One of my new years resolutions is to update this dang blog more! So i'm going to try and be better at that as well as taking pictures to go along with all these words! Merry Christmas and happy new year!
Friday, September 14, 2012
One month down...
Here are just a few of some of Benn and I's favorite moments/thoughts of being in this new crazy place:
1- The weird people EVERYWHERE on the public transportation systems.
2- The rat I saw eating our neighbors garbage.
3- Drivers in Boston pretty much at all hours of the day.
4- Trying to turn left at a light.
5- Road lines really not meaning anything...that's assuming if there ARE road lines.
6- One way streets should be banned everywhere!
7- Humidity does not help when trying to "destinkify" our place.
8- Whoever invented dishwashers were genius! We don't have one and washing the dishes by hand is SO over-rated. :)
I also wanted to finally put some pictures up of our place! It is so much bigger than our place in Vegas and even though we had some...issues, when we first moved in - having it decorated and what not makes it so much better! So...TA DA! Our new(well, month old now) place :)
Other good news...we both got jobs! We have seen so many blessings in our lives these last few weeks and we are so grateful for them. Benn and I both found jobs, we got refunded money that we were not expecting and totally needed, and many others. We have been able to make new friends with people here and we are beginning to feel more at home. Between Benn's school and and both of us working - we keep extremely busy, but it feels good to be doing something again!
1- The weird people EVERYWHERE on the public transportation systems.
2- The rat I saw eating our neighbors garbage.
3- Drivers in Boston pretty much at all hours of the day.
4- Trying to turn left at a light.
5- Road lines really not meaning anything...that's assuming if there ARE road lines.
6- One way streets should be banned everywhere!
7- Humidity does not help when trying to "destinkify" our place.
8- Whoever invented dishwashers were genius! We don't have one and washing the dishes by hand is SO over-rated. :)
I also wanted to finally put some pictures up of our place! It is so much bigger than our place in Vegas and even though we had some...issues, when we first moved in - having it decorated and what not makes it so much better! So...TA DA! Our new(well, month old now) place :)
This is our living room :)
Our front room. This is what you would see when you first walk in. Or in other words, this picture was taken from the front door looking in.
The hallway that leads to the rest of the apartment. The door on the right leads to our second room, door on the left leads to our dining room/computer room, second door on the right is the bathroom, second door on the left is into the kitchen, and the one straight back is to our bedroom.
The second bedroom/stuff we don't quite know what to do with yet.
A built in hutch kind of thing.
The computer station in the corner of the dining room.
Our Kitchen!
Bathroom
Bedroom
Our cool ward robe that we got because our closet is...honestly the smallest thing ever.
There are still a few thing that we have to hang up - but we ran out of 3M sticky things. Plus...we don't have pictures of ourselves in some of the frames so we need to get those in too. :)
Other good news...we both got jobs! We have seen so many blessings in our lives these last few weeks and we are so grateful for them. Benn and I both found jobs, we got refunded money that we were not expecting and totally needed, and many others. We have been able to make new friends with people here and we are beginning to feel more at home. Between Benn's school and and both of us working - we keep extremely busy, but it feels good to be doing something again!
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